I’m back… again… for real this time… I promise?

Well, apparently I can’t be trusted. But I think this time is for real.

Hello, world! It’s me, Eva.

I’ve decided to resurrect this blog as well as my travel blog because it’s summer and I’m bored.

I’m working on a book right now (it’ll be published under a pen name because I’m #respectable these days) so that’s pretty exciting. I’ll add a little word tracker widget so that you can all cheer me on 🙂

I’m also happy to take on any readers who are willing to read along as I write to make sure my plot holes don’t develop in the black holes.

My life is pretty awesome these days. I’m at a wonderful college and love the challenge that collegiate writing presents. I’ve started bullet journaling and have totally become #thatgirl.

To be perfectly honest, I’m not sure what this blog will become in the future. Stay tuned and send me ideas. God knows I need all the help I can get.


I’m back!

After a two year long hiatus (let’s not talk about that), I’m back!

I’ve been writing in the interim, so here’s to hoping that my words flow more naturally and more maturely than they did before.

I’ve also revamped the look of the blog and will start you all of with a poem in just a bit!

To make it up to you, I’ll be participating in a thirty post/thirty days blog challenge. Here’s post one! Two and three will be up shortly 🙂

Fingers crossed you’re all still out there!


Fanfare for the Common Man

He worked a nine-to-five job, had a wife, two kids and a golden retriever. His name was James. His wife was Anna and their children were Jane and Philip, Anna was enamoured with the idea of royalty.

Every morning he got up at 6:30, brushed his teeth and ambled downstairs to get some coffee. After a breakfast of two eggs sunny side up and three sausage links, he’d rise from the table and head upstairs to wake the kids before hopping in the shower.

At 8:00, he’d wait at the front door for Jane and Philip. Their school was on his way to work and as a favor to Anna, who was headed in the opposite direction, he dropped them off every day.

By 8:15, he was speeding off downtown, away from the school.

He clocked in at exactly 8:57

And was at his desk by 8:59, ready to start the day.

He had lunch at 12:30

And took a call from his wife at 2:35 concerning dinner plans.

At 5:01 he was in the elevator headed to the lobby

And at 5:30, he was in traffic, on his way home.

At 5:42, he turned down a new road to try and get home to his family faster.

At 5:44 he deduced that he was lost.

At 5:47 he decided that he wasn’t in the safest area of town.

And at 5:48, he passed through the path of a stray bullet.

At 6:00 pm sharp, he was declared dead on arrival.

One Direction and Grief

First off, please don’t run away. I promise that this will be a serious post on the effectiveness of grief in stories. The other night I was reading a fanfic story that my friend had sent me about One Direction (she’s obsessed). She had promised me that I would be overwhelmed by the depth and emotion that this story contained. To say the least, I was skeptical. Regardless, being the good friend that I am, I read the story. Less than 24 hours later, I was sobbing in bed as I finished the story. Now a bit of backstory, as I mentioned before, my friend is obsessed with One Direction. I am not. In fact, I sort of despised them at first. As, ahem, a classically trained musician, I look down upon most pop music, and One Direction was never exempt from this judgement.

Regardless, being the good friend that I am, I decided to give it a try. As a former fanfic writer (a dark point in my life, I assure you) and a fanfic reader (let’s not talk about that particular guilty pleasure), I knew that fanfics are prone to grammatical mistakes galore and contrived plot lines. With that in mind I began the story. As I mentioned above, by the end of the story, I was sobbing. I wasn’t sobbing becauthe of the death of a character, I was crying because I could empathize with the grief that the survivors felt.

Empathy is one of those emotions that everyone can feel (I so hope that none of you are sociopaths) and as such, it is a particularly effective storytelling device. Because it is so subtle, the walls that many have erected around their hearts are shattered by the overwhelming sensation of empathy that then morphs into grief. Despite one’s best intentions, grief worms itself past that barrier and opens you up to so many other emotions. It may seem counter intuitive, but it all gets easier from there.

#FridayFlash: The End of the World

“I’m sorry, Julsie, but I can’t put you in that sort of danger!”

“Are you kidding me right now, Cy? You and I both know that I’m in danger no matter whom I’m with.” Juliana’s indignant glare captured Cyrus’ gaze and forced him to maintain eye contact. “There is something else, isn’t there.”

“No, I just don’t think that you’d be safe with me!” He tried to defend his decision.

“What is it? Is it because I’m never here? Is it because we’re just never together? I’m sorry, okay? I’m sorry!” Juliana ripped her eyes from Cyrus’. She turned towards the corner of the room and wrapped her arms around herself. “I’m so sorry. I don’t know what I did, but I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay, Julsie. It wasn’t anything you did. This was doomed from the start.” Cyrus tried to comfort her.

“No it wasn’t, and you know it.” She sucked in a breath. “I refuse to let you deny everything that happened as fiction.” She spun on her heel and turned to exit. “Come and find me when you’ve come to your senses. I will be with James.”

Other Phoenix Excerpts:

What could have been.

We were hopeful then.
We saw the future that could,
we saw the people that would
we did not see the truth.

When they took the parents from the children
and the husbands from the wives
we saw what we wanted
we did not see the truth.

We lived in a state of promise
we lived in a state of fear
and yet we hoped, for
we did not see the truth.

It was our fight, our loss
it was our responsibility,
though we never took any, since
we did not see the truth.

The battles were fought by those
whose eyes were unclouded,
not by us, though it was our battle too.
We did not see the truth.

Today we remain
relics of what was and
examples of what could
hoping that others, now, can see the truth.

One Flag

One FlagThree knocks. Two men. One flag.

Standby. And go.

“Light cue one, standby”

A hush falls over the audience. The indiscernible chatter backstage fades out until the entire cast is prepped and ready to go, silent in their excitement. The headset is silent, everyone waiting for the inevitable cue.

“And go.”


“Cue Spot one. Go”

A single light lands.

“Standby.” The chord swells and “go.”

The light surrounds a man. In unison with the orchestra, he opens his mouth and begins to sing. Behind him, the cast echoes his emotion and his words.

“Standby.” Breath in as the chorus arrives. “Go.”

The explosion of light heralds the explosion of sound.

“Fly, standby.” The cast clears to the wings.

“Spot two, standby.” They leave just one person on the stage.

“GO!” Behind the single remaining character arrives a scene, a setting. Light falls, colouring the scene in an iridescent shade of blue.

“Light cue four, standby.” He tells a story. He invites the audience in. Behind him, and behind the flown in set, the ensemble moves, just as integral to the story as he is. “Standby lights. Standby fly.”

Everyone is set. He prepares to land his note. “Go.”

Lights up. Scenery up. Everyone is framed. Faces are joyous, emotion is strong. The audience is sucked in. The actors pour out their hearts.

“Go.” The lights follow the actors.

“Go.” The emotion evoked by the singers is echoed by the inanimate objects controlled by the crew.

“Go.” Again, a shift in lighting paints an action packed sequence with emotion. The gels paint the scene in a certain light.

“Standby sound.” A whirl and a twist. Spinning, enchanting, the cast moves to entrance. “Standby sound for fade.”

The music climaxes. The sound designer adjusts for the outpouring of music. “Standby lights.” The song finishes. “Go.” The audience is blinded. “Go.” The stage is swathed in black.

“Prepare to catch, Stage Right.” Objects come hurtling off stage.

The actors hurry off following the set that had transformed a bare stage and preparing for the change in place and pace. “Standby fly.”

“Fly loft, go.” Avoiding the incoming set, the actors rush back on stage, so aware of their surroundings that they no longer need lights.

“Standby stage right. And go.” A desk zooms onto stage, timed precisely to avoid any misplaced actors.

“Standby lights.” Everyone takes his or her place. The scene is set. “And go.”




“Above…or apart”

The idealized American reality of Whitman is one that completely contrasts the portrait of well-to-do life that James paints for the readers in Daisy Miller. Walt Whitman, in his extremely verbose way, illustrates an America that belongs to everyone. In Daisy Miller, the America of the wealthy and upper middle class seems quite different from that of the poor and underrated so celebrated by Whitman. Daisy, the ultimate flighty American heiress, has none of the drive and depth of the true American that Whitman extols in his poems.

In ‘Song of Myself’ Section 15, Whitman, as he tends to do, begins to list. He lists the ordinary and mundane as opposed to the extraordinary and resplendent. For him, America embodies the humdrum in a way more glorious than the sparkle of Europe. In his list, he includes everyone, regardless of social rank, or perhaps in spite of it. Not only that, but the one person Whitman chooses to include of any clear importance is the President, who typifies America in all her glory.

In clear contrast, James waxes loquacious on the pros and cons of higher American society and its resemblance to European society. He idolizes the virtues of Winterbourne, calling him “an extremely amiable fellow, and universally liked” (James p. 11) and describes Daisy as pretty a multitude of times and embellishes that with the claim that it was a natural beauty, one with “a want of finish.” (James p. 18)

Not only are the choices in cast of character different, the situations discussed are incompatible. For Whitman, the grit of America (‘Vigil Strange I Kept on the Field’, Whitman), the grime of her cities (‘Crossing Brooklyn Ferry’, Whitman) and the gallantry of her citizens (‘Song of Myself’ Section 21, Whitman ‘Song of Myself’ Section 48, Whitman), no matter how lowly and oft ignored, are the things that must be celebrated.

Daisy Miller is filled with the joyful escapades of the wealthy young adults flocking to Vivey and Europe at that time. James chooses not to show the reader the darker side of Europe. The readers see only what the characters see and the readers know only what the characters know. Everything in the novella should be taken with a grain of salt, an adjustment that acknowledges the fact that the world of Winterbourne and Daisy is one far from the bitter reality of Whitman’s American. For Winterbourne, his most pressing issue is to decode Daisy’s signals and emotional responses, something many men through the ages have found difficult. Daisy concerns herself simply with her own ability to manipulate men, namely Winterbourne, and her uncanny aptitude for ensnaring members of the opposite sex for her own gain. These needs seem paramount to Daisy, Winterbourne and their societal equivalents, but they have no prevalence in the poems of Whitman, or at least the emotional aspect of relationships are not mentioned, simply the physical aspects are. (‘Song of Myself’, Section 24)

The primary difference between Whitman and James is the focus. All subsequent irregularities seem to diverge from this original division. Where Whitman is the poor, James is the rich. Whitman focuses on the physical, all consuming aspect of relationships, and James hones in on the emotional turmoil present in all liaisons. Together, they are America. Separately, they embody America as well, but James and Whitman present quite disparate views on the America of their writing. America is a land of contrasts and only through the union of these contrasts can the true heart of the country be found.


Stay Safe!

I don’t have anything special for you today, but I just want to make sure that all of you stay safe! I’ll be weathering (teehee) out the storm in CT and I hope that all of you remember not to take any unnecessary risks!

Please, please, please stay indoors and listen to local warnings!

See you on the other side!